“Hurry, Hurry, Hurry! You’re gonna die pretty soon!”
Every morning, during that magical transitional time between
sleep and awake – that place where creativity flows, visions waft, and feelings
weave - this is what I would hear in my head. My stomach would clench, my heart
would race. “Hurry, Hurry, Hurry! You’re gonna die pretty soon.” I’d bolt out
of bed and start my day – in a panic.
This subconscious morning ritual began while I was “going
through the change”. Going through - as if it was as simple a task as going through
a door, a car wash or the motions. Now wouldn’t that be nice? Well, I can tell you, it’s not nice. It’s not
even polite. It’s like going through a brick wall. It’s like going through the
gauntlet. At it’s worse, it’s revisiting
the journey through the birth canal - dark, wet, warm, and scary as hell. That
bridge to menopausal change didn’t lead me to a world of wisdom, understanding
or spiritual enlightenment. It dumped me off in a world filled with irrational
fears, insecurities, heart palpitations, hot flashes, night sweats and a
complete and utter lack of self purpose. I understand now why my mother was a
complete psycho during her mid 50s.
The “Hurry, Hurry, Hurry! You’re gonna die pretty soon”,
wasn’t about dying. It was about not living – not having a mission. It was
waking up every morning with a sinking feeling in my gut that I had failed. I
failed my people ... my parents, my grandparents and everyone who had known me as
a passionate person. I was failing myself. I knew passion at one time. I had
skills. But a back injury combined with a variety of unchecked hormones hijacked
it all. I was a 47 year-old menopausal woman who desperately needed a mission,
a purpose. And, I found it.
I’ve never killed anything before. Yes, I’ve killed spiders,
slugs, flies, fleas and bees (Nooooo! Not the bees! I know, but I have). I may
have killed a robin once when I was 7 years-old. I say may because I’m not
sure. I did aim my brother’s BB gun at the bird as it sat peacefully perched on a
telephone line and I did pull the trigger. I knew I would never, ever hit it,
but I did. It fell to the ground in an awkward flip-floppy spiral. I was
horrified. Too afraid to look at it, I dropped my gun to the ground and ran
inside bawling, “I didn’t mean to hit it!” I’ve never killed anything with a
face - a face like ours. A face with a stick out nose, curved ears, a set of
canines and eyes that can, if they choose, look straight through you.
My mission in life became apparent to me during the summer
of 2006. Raccoons were murdering our cats. Ten were killed in our neighborhood
within a two week period. This particular gaze of raccoons was more than just a
bit abnormal. They were a different breed. They were urban raccoons and they
weren’t afraid … of anything. Oh, they looked normal with their cute little
bandit faces, tiny black paws and bushy striped tails. But, make no mistake,
they were diabolically evil.
One attack took place a block away late one night. Three
raccoons worked in unison as they attacked a cat on its own front porch. The
owner and several neighbors tried their hardest, but were unable to get the
raccoons off the cat before it was seriously injured. When they finally got the
cat away from the crazed raccoons they took it inside their house. What happened
next was right out of a 1950s horror movie. The raccoons began to head-butt the
front of the house, still in kill mode, trying to get at the cat. Shocked witnesses
said, “They were throwing themselves up against the outside of the house.”
It was bizarre behavior, even for a raccoon.
My neighbors across the street found their cat dead near
their front porch. She was torn apart in the way raccoons with sharp claws are
known to do. The cat’s stomach was zippered open and mutilated. If you’ve
ever heard the bloodcurdling shrieking of a raccoon attacking your cat, a
beloved member of your family, you will never forget it. It’s terrifying.
I pleaded with the city to help us, but their hands were
tied. Now, if it had been a bear or a mountain lion roaming the back alleys of West Olympia – then they could help - but not raccoons.
They were just nuisance wildlife. I tried to tell them, “Are you nuts? These
raccoons are bloodthirsty bionic bastards! They frickin’ carried a little dog
away!” It didn’t matter to them. All the city could do is give me a list of
animal trappers, so I hired one.
Trapper Tom, a good ‘ol boy from Arkansas, in his Filson tin
cloth duster jacket and ten gallon hat, taught me everything you’d ever want to
know about raccoons. He taught me how track, trap, and think like a raccoon. I
patrolled the neighborhood late into the night, sometimes staking out a
particular spot to determine the beast’s travel routes. Yes, I had found my
passion. I was going to save the cats, no matter what it took.
We set live traps throughout the neighborhood. I’d get up
early every morning to make my rounds. We caught opossum, rats, cats, and squirrels,
but no raccoons. They were just too damn smart. They knew all about traps and
how to use their opposable thumbs to get out. Trapper Tom and I even watched as
a mother raccoon taught her kits how to maneuver in and out of a trap
successfully. More cats were being killed and our plan of action, live
trapping, was not working. It was time to up the ante.
Tom came to me one day and said, “There is another option,
ya know.”
I looked at him perplexed, “Whadda ya mean?”
He stared at me for a moment, “Dispatch ‘em, ma’am.”
I stared at him. What the hell did dispatch mean? Was I
supposed to just tell the raccoons, “Move along, now. You’ve overstayed your
welcome. Here is a map to get you to Tumwater. There’s plenty of room over
there for you and your gang of barbarous murderers. Move along.”
“Ma’am, if I could, I’d dispatch ‘em myself, but I’d lose my
trappers’ license – seein’ you live in the city limits. It’s illegal.”
I still didn’t get it. What the hell was he talking about?
He realized I wasn’t catching his drift, so he leaned into
me and whispered, “You shoot ‘em ma’am.”
My mind swirled. Could I do that? I don’t believe in
killing.
A neighborhood meeting is organized to brainstorm raccoon
options. The neighbors disagree on everything. The solutions range from
continued trapping, to spear guns and pepper spray, to complaining to the city.
Most can’t bear the thought of killing the little furry ball of cuteness. Folks
who have lost cats cry. Some folks complain about no governmental support. I felt
like I was in the middle the Clint Eastwood movie, “High Plains Drifter”.
Brazen outlaws are taking over our town, making life hell, and no one had the
balls to stand up and fight back.
As I sit silent, listening to the group’s sincere angst,
Trapper Tom turned to me and said, “Ma’am, if you do this it’ll have to be a
clandestine operation. You have two, maybe three, friendlies in this group.” I
nodded. After hearing all the sadness, fear, and anger – I no longer had to
question anything. I was a hormonally imbalanced, mission-seeking, crazed
menopausal woman who was ready to do whatever it took to save our neighborhood cats
and save myself from sinking any further into a life that lacked purpose. I
felt as though I had no choice. It was my destiny. With Tom’s help I would
train, track, stalk, bait and shoot the devil raccoons – all within the dark
shadowy clandestine corners of our neighborhood.
Trapper Tom and his buddy Blenn took me to the shooting
range for some target practice. Like Tom, Blenn was a good ol’ boy. He was a
rotund fella who always wore a t-shirt, jeans and suspenders. At times he looked and sounded like he’d just stepped out of the remote Georgia
wilderness. But, the guy had a heart of gold and would do most anything for you.
My water-soaked pink and white cowboy bandana was tied
around my neck. The plastic safety glasses slipped down on my nose from the
sweat on my face. It was damn hot!
I looked over at the Range Master and in an unsure voice
said, “Range Master. Is the range hot?”
The Range Master replied, “The range is hot!”
I push my protective glasses up on my nose, steady my .22
pump rifle, and looked down the barrel of my gun. The bead of the front sight
wobbles in the cradle of the rear sight. The last time I shot a gun was when my
ex-boss took me out in the boondocks to target shoot at some abandoned gravel
pit in the 1980s.
Trapper Tom watched as I steadied my rifle and took aim at
the target 50 yards down range. I pulled the trigger. Crap! The shot is at the
very edge of the paper – off target.
As the afternoon wore on, I began to reclaim my gun prowess.
Tom and Blenn gave me some pointers, corrected my form. Relax, breath, gently
squeeze the trigger, don’t pull it.
“Range Master, is the range hot?”
“The range is hot!”
I set the bead steady in the rear sight and quickly shot off
five rounds. Tom looked through his target telescope. Blenn looked too and
turned to Tom, puzzled.
“What? Did I totally miss it?”
Without much expression, Tom says, “Ah, no ma’am. You hit
it.
I looked in the scope. All five shots hit the bulls-eye dead
center. I looked at Tom, feeling pretty puffed up and damn proud of myself.
Tom gave me a little grin and said, “You’re ready.”
Blenn hollered out, “Raccoon stew!”
Tom said I was ready and I felt ready - ready to kill my
first raccoon. It felt like I was living I an alternate universe. I’d always
believed in not killing – and here I am gearing up for a kill. I felt ashamed
and excited at the same time. I remember wearing the Army uniform my mom bought
me when I was seven. It wasn’t the camo fatigues of today, but the olive drab green
uniform of the war I watched on TV every night – the war in Vietnam. I’d
put on all my gear - helmet, boots, canteen, BB gun – and head out into the
acres of Scotch broom that covered our five acres of property. It was the best
thing in the world for playing Army. If you belly crawled into a big patch of
it you’d eventually be enveloped in a cave canopy of broom. My mom and dad
looked at the plant as a weed. To me – it was Nazi Germany and I was on a
mission to destroy the enemy and save the world.
I had a strong background in “having a mission”. All my heroes as a kid had missions. Of
course there were no bonafide female heroes to emulate when I was growing up –
only male ones and my mom made sure I had outfits for each one: Neil Armstrong,
Robin Hood, and the American soldier. When you lack purpose in your life one of
the quickest ways to find it is to go back to when you were 8 years old. Kids
have purpose in their pretend world. I did. I think the raccoon war took me
back in time to how good and exciting it feels to be on a mission – a hero’s mission.
It was July 4th and it was still hot. Trapper Tom
had decided it would be a good day to commit the crime of shooting a gun off
within the city limits. The popping and blasting of all the fireworks would
provide excellent cover for the sound of a .22 rifle. We set the shot up at a
neighbor’s house that was surrounded by trees. Her back deck was converted into
a bait/kill zone. I hate saying words like this, but there’s no other name for
it. We laid a couple of hard boiled eggs out and waited. We waited just inside
my neighbor’s house with the two French doors open to the deck. I sat in a hard
back chair, rifle ready. Tom sat right behind me in another chair – looking
over my shoulder. I learned later that Tom had questioned my partner as to if I
could handle killing something. My partner wasn’t sure, but knew I was
committed to doing the job nobody else wanted to do.
My heart raced as we waited for a coon to show up - my gun
at the ready. It was 94 degrees out - sweat dripped down my face, neck, and back.
We sat for two hours in the heat and then heard the alarm. Crows – lots of
crows squawking frantically. Crows hate raccoons, especially when they encroach
on their territory. Their squawking is how we knew a raccoon was approaching.
My adrenaline surged. I still wasn’t sure I could do this. I knew I could shoot
a gun, but could I kill? I found out soon enough. A raccoon poked it’s head up
in one of the 4 inch spaces between the deck railing. I nestled the butt of the
rifle into my shoulder, released the safety and aimed the sight right on the
raccoon’s forehead, right between the eyes – so it would take only one shot. I
sat there frozen – with my aim on the target. I had a perfect shot, but I
couldn’t move. All I could see was the raccoon’s eyes looking straight into my
eyes. Neither of us moved an inch.
And then from behind me I hear a whisper, “Miss Tami, if you can’t do
this – I can do it for you. Can you do it?”
Tom’s voice snapped me out of my stare down with the coon. I
thought to myself … there is no way I’m going to let you do this for me.
Without saying a word to Tom, I took a deep breath, released it and gently
pulled the trigger. The gun BLASTED, the
bullet hit it’s mark perfectly. The raccoon dropped to the ground and I dropped
my rifle on the floor in a panic - just like I did when I shot the Robin off
the telephone line.
My adrenaline was running so high after that it took until
later that evening to begin to feel the ramifications of killing an alive
being. It didn’t feel good, but I did kill four more raccoons in the same way…
to save the cats. It never got easier – it only got harder. After my fifth kill
I couldn’t do it anymore. The devil coons killed a few more cats that summer. The Associated Press picked up the story and gave it the title, “Psycho Killer
Raccoons Terrorize Olympia, Washington”. I was interviewed by radio stations
across the country, in New Zealand and the UK. National Geographic came to our
neighborhood and filmed a special about the wacky Olympia raccoons and then ...
the killing stopped. It just stopped. No goodbyes, no nothin’. We found out a
year later that some guy in our neighborhood had been feeding the raccoons pot
and steroids just to see what happened. He moved away and our raccoons went
back to being less evil and less deadly.
What will remember most about the Raccoon Wars of 2006? Just one thing – the eyes of the first raccoon I shot - staring straight
through me. I found out that killing those five raccoons broke a part of my
soul. If I have to do it again to protect myself or my family (even if its
“just” my cats) I’ll do it --- but it will hurt.